.Wednesday, June 11, 2008 ' 7:23 PM Y
all together
i seem to have lost my motivation to DO WORK.
I haven't started on chinese sia 60% part, french mugging (?!?!?! SHIT), 250 chengyu, and LA analysis.
i don't know how to DO the stupid la analysis! D:
i suppose the reason why i've lost all motivation and love sleeping for 12 hours a day and slacking and being addicted to delicious deluxe and all that slacking shit is because this is the only time when we get to relax. However, the irony of it is that, while i'm relaxing, i'm still worrying about work, but
i don't seem to care. Which is really weird. I think it's really tiring to study all day long, as much as i love doing it.
i think i just want to take a break from being stressed out and everything. i think we all deserve a break after all the deadlines and work, but there are blocks (which we haven't been told exactly what to study for, btw) and i have french controle and there's the chinese sia presentation. which i haven't started on. i hope i get out of this slack mood really soon, if not i'm going to die.
i thought we were supposed to treasure our youth!
although this is just me trying to come up with 101 excuses for why i'm not doing my work. D:
funny, i used to want to be perfect.
i was really obssessed with it and everything.
but then people told me that perfection doesn't exist.
to me, perfection is all about grades and school, because that's the way i've been brought up to think. because society IS a rat race, and we all just grow up and try to earn the most money... or that's what my parents seem to think, anyway. of course, they recently keep telling me that i need to relax. i suppose i do. and i am, really. (although a bit TOO much!!)
why is it so impossible to be perfect?
perfect can mean differently, to yourself, anyway (:
what's wrong with trying, anyway?
we should tell ourselves that perfection doesn't exist, but we should still do our best anyway.
and be happy.
i guess studying seems pretty pointless.
it just gets you a cert which gets you a job which gets you money, which gets you your survival.
but it is scary studying so much and not knowing about your future anyway.
for now, i guess we just have to finish the frigging chinese sia D:
angeline.
